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Category: breaking cycles

  • The Healing We Never Expected… Series Part 2

    Part 2: I used to leave. That was my pattern. If something didn’t benefit me, if I couldn’t control it, if it got too loud or too heavy, I walked away. I didn’t care to fight for what I didn’t understand. I told myself it was strength, but really, it was fear disguised as indifference.…

  • The Healing We Never Expected… Series Part 1

    My last couple series were about the pain, anger and hard work that was involved, I’d like to show recognition and light. This Series consists of thank you’s and gratitude in my life today, currently. Giving you hope that your pain in this world is NEVER permanent. Part 1: My partner is healing my child…

  • The Hidden Battlefield… Series Part 10

    Part 10: Choosing Yourself and Building a New Future Trigger Warning (18+): This post includes themes of trauma, self-discovery, and empowerment. Intended for adult readers. If you are in immediate danger, call your local emergency number. After all the struggle, the anger, the loss, and the healing, there comes a point when you realize something…

  • The Hidden Battlefield… Series Part 9

    Part 9: Forgiveness, Anger, and Letting Go Trigger Warning (18+): This post discusses themes of anger, betrayal, and forgiveness. Intended for adult readers. If you are in immediate danger, call your local emergency number. Forgiveness. It’s one of those words people throw around like it’s simple. “Just forgive and move on.” But if you’ve lived…

  • The Hidden Battlefield… Series Part 8

    Part 8: Breaking Generational Cycles Trigger Warning (18+): This post discusses family dysfunction, cycles of abuse, and healing from generational trauma. Intended for adult readers. If you are in immediate danger, call your local emergency number. Sometimes, the hardest truth to face is this: the people who were supposed to protect us were often the…

  • The Hidden Battlefield… Series Part 7

    Part 7: Love, Relationships, and the Myth of “Enough” Trigger Warning (18+): This post discusses themes of self-worth, unhealthy relationships, and emotional dependency. Intended for adult readers. If you are in immediate danger, call your local emergency number now. “Am I enough?”
 That question has followed me like a shadow. In friendships, in family, in…

  • The Hidden Battlefield… Series Part 6

    Part 6: Parenting the Child You Were Trigger Warning (18+): This post includes themes of childhood neglect, emotional abuse, and self-healing. Intended for adult readers. If you are in immediate danger, please call your local emergency number. When you grow up in chaos, you don’t always realize what you didn’t get. You just learn to…

  • The Hidden Battlefield… Series Part 5

    Part 5: Music, Rituals, and Small Lifelines Trigger Warning (18+): This post touches on mental health struggles, self-harm, and suicidal thoughts. Intended for adult readers. If you are in immediate danger, call your local emergency number now. When the big things are breaking, the small things sometimes keep you afloat.For me, it was songs. It…

  • The Hidden Battlefield… Series Part 4

    Part 4: Hidden Scars Trigger Warning (18+): This post contains descriptions of self-harm, suicidal thoughts, and emotional abuse. Intended for adult readers. If you are in immediate danger, please call your local emergency number now. Some wounds you can see. Others live under the surface, folding into the way you breathe and the stories you…

  • The Hidden Battlefield… Series Part 3

    Part 3: The Body and the Mirror Trigger Warning (18+): This post discusses body image struggles, disordered eating, and self-harm. If you are in crisis, please seek immediate help (resources at the bottom). The body was never just a body for me: it was a battlefield. Everywhere I looked, there were rules for how I…