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Category: mental-health

  • The Healing We Never Expected… Series Part 5

    Part 5: There was a time when I believed healing wasn’t meant for me. That my story was too heavy, my wounds too deep, my heart too scarred to ever feel whole again. I believed love would always be fleeting or conditional. Something you had to chase, something that slipped away the moment you reached…

  • The Healing We Never Expected… Series Part 4

    Part 4: For most of my life, love felt like a guessing game. I thought it was about being pursued, about someone chasing after you to prove you were worth it. I thought silence meant they didn’t care, and boundaries felt like rejection.With him, I learned something entirely different. He never spoke in circles. He…

  • The Healing We Never Expected.. Series Part 3

    Part 3: I thought I could protect my child from the darkness I carried. I told myself that if I loved enough, if I poured everything I had into her, it would be enough to cover the cracks in me. I prayed that she wouldn’t inherit my sadness, my anxiety, the heavy weight of silence…

  • The Healing We Never Expected… Series Part 2

    Part 2: I used to leave. That was my pattern. If something didn’t benefit me, if I couldn’t control it, if it got too loud or too heavy, I walked away. I didn’t care to fight for what I didn’t understand. I told myself it was strength, but really, it was fear disguised as indifference.…

  • The Healing We Never Expected… Series Part 1

    My last couple series were about the pain, anger and hard work that was involved, I’d like to show recognition and light. This Series consists of thank you’s and gratitude in my life today, currently. Giving you hope that your pain in this world is NEVER permanent. Part 1: My partner is healing my child…

  • The Hidden Battlefield… Series Part 10

    Part 10: Choosing Yourself and Building a New Future Trigger Warning (18+): This post includes themes of trauma, self-discovery, and empowerment. Intended for adult readers. If you are in immediate danger, call your local emergency number. After all the struggle, the anger, the loss, and the healing, there comes a point when you realize something…

  • The Hidden Battlefield… Series Part 9

    Part 9: Forgiveness, Anger, and Letting Go Trigger Warning (18+): This post discusses themes of anger, betrayal, and forgiveness. Intended for adult readers. If you are in immediate danger, call your local emergency number. Forgiveness. It’s one of those words people throw around like it’s simple. “Just forgive and move on.” But if you’ve lived…

  • The Hidden Battlefield… Series Part 8

    Part 8: Breaking Generational Cycles Trigger Warning (18+): This post discusses family dysfunction, cycles of abuse, and healing from generational trauma. Intended for adult readers. If you are in immediate danger, call your local emergency number. Sometimes, the hardest truth to face is this: the people who were supposed to protect us were often the…

  • The Hidden Battlefield… Series Part 7

    Part 7: Love, Relationships, and the Myth of “Enough” Trigger Warning (18+): This post discusses themes of self-worth, unhealthy relationships, and emotional dependency. Intended for adult readers. If you are in immediate danger, call your local emergency number now. “Am I enough?”
 That question has followed me like a shadow. In friendships, in family, in…

  • The Hidden Battlefield… Series Part 6

    Part 6: Parenting the Child You Were Trigger Warning (18+): This post includes themes of childhood neglect, emotional abuse, and self-healing. Intended for adult readers. If you are in immediate danger, please call your local emergency number. When you grow up in chaos, you don’t always realize what you didn’t get. You just learn to…